Heartache bothers us all.
Whenever, and I promise I don't mean this lightly, I feel like I've begun to get attracted to someone, it soon turns out that they've been feeling not so hot towards me or even noticed how I feel. The latter is probably because I'm super insecure and awkward and may be too scared to actually project it.
So, what happens when I see that they don't feel the same or that they do but for someone else? A cycle of jealousy, 'why not me?', self-hate, general hate, self-pity, self deprecation and finally, acceptance of my short-comings runs all over again like a film in a broke film theatre with dying equipment and scenes get stuck.
I'm in 'self-hate' right now. So, to detach myself from the situation and be writing this is quite the challenge but an interesting one at that. Yeah, yeah. There was someone and that did not do too well for me. While I feed the lonely void in my heart with this mindless incessant typing, let me tell you something that I wish someone tells me every time I get into this situation: "It will always suck when you see your goal and find the roadmap, but, you don't have the night lights or the support system to realise the utility of the roadmap to get straight to the goal." This requires both divergence and convergence of thought. In business, like in any aspect of life, one has to back off and really see the big picture.
With the guy I had a crush on, it hurts when I see that it's going elsewhere. So, all I had to do was step back, take a deep breath and actually look at it as a human thing while making a decision to manage the emotional connection while keeping certain emotions in check.
Whenever, and I promise I don't mean this lightly, I feel like I've begun to get attracted to someone, it soon turns out that they've been feeling not so hot towards me or even noticed how I feel. The latter is probably because I'm super insecure and awkward and may be too scared to actually project it.
So, what happens when I see that they don't feel the same or that they do but for someone else? A cycle of jealousy, 'why not me?', self-hate, general hate, self-pity, self deprecation and finally, acceptance of my short-comings runs all over again like a film in a broke film theatre with dying equipment and scenes get stuck.
I'm in 'self-hate' right now. So, to detach myself from the situation and be writing this is quite the challenge but an interesting one at that. Yeah, yeah. There was someone and that did not do too well for me. While I feed the lonely void in my heart with this mindless incessant typing, let me tell you something that I wish someone tells me every time I get into this situation: "It will always suck when you see your goal and find the roadmap, but, you don't have the night lights or the support system to realise the utility of the roadmap to get straight to the goal." This requires both divergence and convergence of thought. In business, like in any aspect of life, one has to back off and really see the big picture.
With the guy I had a crush on, it hurts when I see that it's going elsewhere. So, all I had to do was step back, take a deep breath and actually look at it as a human thing while making a decision to manage the emotional connection while keeping certain emotions in check.
